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I will test this on the specimen dream which I chose for analysis, and
enquire what the thought was which made its way into that dream in a distorted form,
and which I should be inclined to repudiate if it were undistorted. I recall
that my free cab-drive reminded me of my recent expensive drive with a member of
my family, that the interpretation of the dream was ‘I wish I might for once
experience love that cost me nothing’, and that a short time before the dream I
had been obliged to spend a considerable sum of money on this same person’s
account. Bearing this context in mind, I cannot escape the conclusion that I regret having made that expenditure. Not until I have recognized this impulse does my wish in the dream for the
love which would call for no expenditure acquire a meaning. Yet I can honestly say that when I decided to
spend this sum of money I did not hesitate for a moment. My regret at having to
do so - the contrary current of feeling - did not become conscious to me. Why it did not, is another and a far-reaching question, the answer to which is
known to me but belongs in another connection.
If the dream that I analyse is not my own, but someone else’s, the
conclusion will be the same, though the grounds for believing it will be different. If
the dreamer is a healthy person, there is no other means open to me of obliging
him to recognize the repressed ideas that have been discovered than by pointing
out the context of the dream-thoughts; and I cannot help it if he refuses to
recognize them. If, however, I am dealing with a neurotic patient, with a
hysteric for instance, he will find the acceptance of the repressed thought forced
upon him, owing to its connection with the symptoms of his illness, and owing to
the improvement he experiences when he exchanges those symptoms for the
repressed ideas. In the case, for instance, of the woman patient who had the dream I
have just quoted about the three theatre tickets which cost 1 florin 50
kreuzers, the analysis led to the inevitable conclusion that she had a low estimate of
her husband (cf. her idea that she could have got one ‘a hundred times better
), that she regretted having married him, and that she would have liked to
exchange him for another one. It is true that she asserted that she loved her
husband, and that her emotional life knew nothing of any such low estimate of him,
but all her symptoms led to the same conclusion as the dream. And after her
repressed memories had been revived of a particular period during which she had
consciously not loved her husband, her symptoms cleared up and her resistance
against the interpretation of the dream disappeared.